This weekend I have a three-day weekend. I needed to use up a personal day before the end of the month, so I scheduled some down time. Now, I never plan for my down time to actually be down time. Vacations, weekends, even regular days off sometimes, I expect myself to write and make some progress.
Of course, then I feel guilty because I rarely do much more than watch Shark Week.
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This weekend, however, I have gotten something accomplished. While it may not have been precisely what I wanted done so far, it was definitely time spent on work ending in a finished product. I made my next ebook cover.
I decided I wanted to publish my story Anniversary Gift in an ebook short story collection. I’ve been toying with the idea since late June, I think. I have put the story itself up on Literotica.com, and it ended up being quite highly rated, which I was very proud of. (Though the ratings have been drooping into the 4.6 something range, when it took a long time for it to drop below 4.7 *sulk*)
When I had originally written the story, I had started a continuation, but never made it more than a few paragraphs down the line before dropping it. Somehow, this summer, I pulled a whole other Elise story out of my head. I’m honestly not really sure where it came from or how it ended up a completely written story. “Cowpoke,” for instance, I wrote in an hour or two after dreaming most of it during a nap. This one, I just haven’t the foggiest when I actually sat down and wrote the bulk of the pages. It’s less than six weeks old, and I’ve entirely forgotten its creation.
Memory problems aside, I really like how the story turned out. I’ve considered cutting out or replacing a scene in the middle, and I might yet do that, but I’ve turned most of my attention onto the third story that will be in the collection. As I’ve said before, I have a story I ripped apart so much that I basically lost interest in putting it back together. I have the abandoned sequel fragment. I have a few other stories that might be closer to finished but they don’t really fit the theme of the collection. I don’t want to go with just two stories, one of which is already published (and will go first in the collection as the free sample section).
So what I really wanted to accomplish this weekend was to pound out the third story. I did some editing and I created a cover (with a photo I’ve been coveting on dreamstime.com for weeks now). I sat down in the craft room with the computer and worked, and that was good. But I still feel guilty. And stressed about money. And I’m hoping to get this out of the way so that I can edit that novel sitting there in its binder on the floor.
Or I could work on that bizarre sci-fi erotica story I made the cover for a few weeks ago just out of ridiculous delight for the idea. If that ever makes it to the public, I can only imagine the very WTF reviews that would get. Perhaps I’ve been unduly influenced by Cecilia Tan. She edits these fantastic anthologies of fantasy and sci-fi erotica. I’ve read the most intriguing stories in some of these works, and back when I first started writing smutty stories, I hoped one day to publish with her and Circlet Press. They’re still around, but I suppose I’ve bypassed that point in my life, both the aspiration towards the subject and the need for a publisher’s approval.
Still, maybe I should rekindle some of that long-forgotten hope. It would definitely be cool to feel like a chosen one.