I was informed as I logged into WordPress today that it is my second anniversary with WordPress! Which is a bit sad in a ‘time flies’ sort of way. I don’t feel that I’ve posted that much on here, some 40 odd entries and much of that Sherlock fan fiction chapters. I have so much more I could post that I don’t. I suppose I’ve never been all that dedicated to anything at all, at least not on the long term.
I should be working on a book I could actually publish in a get-paid capacity. I think I have a NaNo project I could really fix up. I rather tell myself that it will be my April Camp NaNoWriMo project, but I’m lazy and vague about it. (Of course I am.) I’ve been lazy and vague about it all since college — I think I lost much of the shiny naïvety that thought I could really publish and be a writer. It was replaced with a certain amount of so-called “realism” and the need for “marketable” skills. Some of that is good, and some of that is bad. I think I hear too much of the bad in my head.
Yeah, frick, sorry, that’s all depressing. I hope no one read that 🙂 I’ve gotten to a point where I’ve screwed up a lot of things and nothing much good has come to fruition and I’m feeling a little hopeless. Been burying myself in my Sherlock pieces but that is only a band-aid, a distraction, a way to hide from the shitstorm that is brewing.
Damnit, still whining. That won’t solve anything. Figure out a plan! Go forth with plan! Solve problems! 🙂 When on earth did something as innocuous as a Happy Anniversary from WordPress become as unwelcome as a post-40 birthday?
PS. Bright side, I did add a chapter onto my Wanderer story on AO3, even though I swore up and down it was going to be a one-shot. There will likely be more, too. I also updated my Sherlock and the Huntsman story, and have also been posting it on ff.net, after a month of the above crap plus a toothache. I got through the aphrodisiac chapter on Regency Sherlock (Lazarus Machine, I know, but I still think of it in my head as RS) last weekend, so that was exciting, and I have part of the next chapter written up. So I have at least been creative and busy. Yay!